Five Pounds

I am getting married in 52 days.

I am feeling pressure to want to lose weight. Not from me or my family, but from society. It's not the normal societal pressures of super skinny celebrities and models on the covers of magazines. It's the pressure from wedding society that every bride wants to lose "5 or 10 pounds" before their wedding.

I've always been kind of hard on myself about my shape and weight. I know I have it alot easier than most so I try really hard to love my body. I don't want to waste my best body years disliking my body - what a waste!

So, throughout my marathon wedding planning I have never put pressure on myself to do anything about my body. I worked out consistently while Brian was gone and I have been running and walking 3 times a week for the last 3ish months. I didn't do any of that to fit into a smaller gown - I did it to be happy and healthy.

It would be so easy to start picking myself apart and decide I need to lose weight. I'm not going to though. Most of my body will be under a gigantic gown anyway. I really want to love my body. Most days I really like it. Some days I don't mind it. Rarely do I not like it. I think if I start now being ok with how I look, then on my wedding day I won't even think about how small my waist is or could have been. I mean, who wants to worry about that on such a big day?!

Therefore, I say screw you wedding society. I am not going to cave under your weight loss pressures.

Now, if only I could get a guarantee that my chin would be acne free that day. That is stressing me out much more than a pesky 5 pounds.

Oh, and I have an aunt that is driving me absolutely bonkers with questions/requests surrounding the wedding weekend. I just laugh at her and imagine how uncomfortable it must be to have such a large rod stuck up her @$$.

S.