Disappointing Friday.

Today has been a - I don't want to call it crappy - disappointing day. I stayed in bed too long so I got a late start at the gym. I stopped on base to get a little bit of gas to get me off of 1/8 of a tank and the pump I picked kept kicking off for no reason. I hate when that happens! They are doing 100% ID checks everywhere on base this weekend. Well, I get all the way to the gym before they tell me this so I have to walk all the way back to the truck to get it. Since I was late(r) to the gym it was more crowded so I skipped the stretching/situp room all together. I ate a cheeseburger with too much mustard for lunch and then wasted the afternoon. I didn't go anywhere and I never put makeup or real clothes on. I didn't spend any money (aside from $10 on gas) so I guess that's a good thing. I ate too much pizza for dinner and listened to Cooper come apart completely in the second half of their game. I don't know why the Cooper thing set me off like it did, but I feel sad and extremely disappointed. I think it was just the culmination of the entire day. I've been feeling restless lately. My move-to-Louisiana date is slowly approaching. It's finally sort of within reach. I know as soon as that is finished then Brian coming home will be so close. I haven't talked to him in 2 days which I think is also throwing me off. I like to downplay how him being gone affects me. I like to think I'm the same day to day, but I'm really not. I act the same, but really I get a little more sad and a little less happy after each day that I don't talk to him. I keep waiting for him to get home so we can have our life together and I just hope and pray that it is everything that we have dreamed it will be. Sorry this is so rambling. I was feeling emotional and this is the best place to let it out.

S.