I'm having a melancholy night.
I finished Dear John tonight. It's been over 3 years since I first read it. Many of the details had become fuzzy in my memory, but I had a feeling that it wouldn't end happily ever after. I like happily ever after. I'm a total sucker for it. Books and movies are always better, in my opinion, if it ends the way I want it to. I don't like crying. I don't like being reminded of how fragile life is, of how the choices we make affect everything, of how things sometimes don't work out how we would have liked.
Not only does Dear John leave me a little weepy, but it's all about the freakin' Army. When it came out in 2006, Brian and I were a very new couple. We did not become a military family until 2007, so when I first read this book, I appreciated the military aspect, but not like I do now.
I know deployment #2 is coming this year. Hell, we're about to be apart for a month with little to no communication while he's off training in high altitude. Where did the last year go? I totally took it for granted.
I think a combination of finishing the book and a couple sad songs I've been obsessed with have gotten me down a tad.
I really did have a good day today. I just want to work on living each day and stop looking ahead all the time. I feel like I'm missing things.
2 comments:
I know how you feel.. I can't decide if I want to read the book or see the movie, simply because it's too REAL for me beCAUSE I'm a military wife. Like when I watched "Brothers," I felt so awful afterwards.. I still do when I really think about it.
I know exactly how you feel. I read the book when it first came out and just finished reading it two days ago. The hubby and I are facing our second deployment in about a month and that book just really made me think about a lot of things. I can't shake that feeling of sadness that is looming over me and I've already started to worry about this deployment.
On a side note-the movie Dear John is alot different than the book. It is very good. Def worth seeing
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